Lighting the lamp of true knowledge to dispel darkness of ignorance looming large on our minds is the need of the day. `Tamso Ma Jyotirgamaya’ (Lead me from darkness unto light); so prays the devotee to God. The prayer mantras seeking light are recited in broad daylight. Does one pray for light of the day during daytime when sun is shining bright? Certainly not. Without emphasizing the obvious we may say that it is the inner darkness that needs to be dispelled.
Ruchi’s question on facebook about what can make a marriage work started me thinking. This is not the first time I have thought about it, and whenever I think that I will get married myself one day it gives me cold feet. The reason for the cold feet is precisely the fear that the marriage might not work. My failed relationships of the past have taught me a lot of things, to think the way I do, to be able to take responsibility for my actions, but they have also made me increasingly pessimistic… will I ever find true love (marriage of mind and body)?Recently one of my friends dated a guy for a few days. They were great together, I mean they had great chemistry. But there was a fuck up as is mandatory for most good things. He is younger to her, naturally, in a country like India it is difficult to visualize a future under such circumstances.
Now that I have decided to publish... I am wondering on the mood and the tone of my blog. Is it to be a happy blog- where I record all moments that made me happy? Or is it to be a sad one- where I put down those really unhappy times? Or shall I just flow with the tide (I hate clichés!)…and make a note of whatever happens when it does?
I hate making decisions- well, that is supposed to be characteristic of my sun sign- “Cancer”. I discovered this sun sign thing pretty late… later than I discovered that I hated making decisions!
